Debt and Credit Cards: Beware of “smallenfreuden”

DD2 = Dear Second Daughter
DH = Dear Husband
                A couple of nights ago, DD2 and I were watching a bit of TV when a commercial came on that I’d never seen before.  I was at once captivated by the quirky charm of the ad with its 1950s-era music, film footage, sound quality, and narrative style, and I was pleasantly bemused by its focus – a word I’d never seen or heard before:  smallenfreuden.  But when the commercial’s purpose became clear to me, I could feel my eyes narrowing into a glare as my mouth tightened.  A growl escaped me, and I muttered my contempt, but I kept it brief and quiet because DD2 tells me I talk about debt too often – and I don’t want to be that mom.
                The commercial was all about Visa, and the “joy of small” that comes with using the credit card for “small purchases you’d make anyway”.  In the days before our journey out of debt, I would have remained somewhat amused by the commercial from start to finish, perhaps rolling my eyes back when the Visa bit became apparent.  One full year into our debt-reduction, however, I see it as an insidious new agent of the Debt-Matrix.
                We’re following Dave Ramsey’s plan in our efforts to become debt-free, and Ramsey is unequivocally opposed to all things credit card.  “As I said, when you play with snakes, you get bitten,” he writes in his book, The Total Money Makeover.  “I have heard all the bait put out there to lure the unsuspecting into the pit.  A free hat, airline miles, brownie points back, free use of someone else’s money, a discount at the register – the list goes on to get you to sign up for a credit card.  Have you ever asked yourself why they work so hard to get you involved?  The answer is that you lose and they win” (Ramsey, 41).  Nevertheless, DH and I still use our Visa.
                Our debts have been in the form of lines of credit.  Credit card debt has not been an issue for us.  With very few exceptions, we have always paid off our credit cards in full.  And while Ramsey points out that “according to MSNBC.com, 90 percent of the airline miles are never redeemed” (Ramsey, 41), we eagerly use up every single one of ours.  Furthermore, the credit card points that we rack up at the gas pump earn us a restaurant meal every two years.  When I recently raised the possibility of getting rid of our credit cards, DH pointed out these things, and without directly stating it, essentially said that we were avoiding the pitfalls of being duped and that we were actually gaining from our credit card use.  “Wrong again,” says Ramsey.  “A study of credit card use at McDonald’s found that people spent 47 percent more when using credit cards instead of cash.  It hurts when you spend cash; therefore you spend less” (Ramsey, 42).
                Is it possible that if we took a pair of scissors to our credit cards, we’d ultimately spend significantly less?  That we’d actually save in real cash far more than we could ever earn in terms of air-mile points or restaurant points?  We’ve been living pretty frugally over the last year, so on the one hand it’s hard to believe that we could do better.  On the other hand, we would never have believed that we could increase our debt-repayment by over 300% from one year to the next, and yet in the first year of our journey out of debt, we have.  (See last week’s post, “First Anniversary of Debt-Reduction:  $50,000 Down!”) We use our credit cards for relatively few and very fixed purchases, but I’m inclined to believe that we really would spend less if we got rid of them altogether.  DH doesn’t feel as I do at this point, but he’s giving the idea some thought.
                There has been some negative commentary on the whole “smallenfreuden” initiative.  The Urban Dictionary has two entries for the word.  The first one posted, obviously by a Visa-friendly individual, defines it as “An English/German loanword that literally means ‘the joy of small.’ ”  The entry later posted, evidently by an individual with some reservations about Visa’s motives,  defines it as, “The joy of falling into debt in small increments.”  As for me, I’m just itching for a pair of scissors.

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First Anniversary of Debt-Reduction: $50,000 Down!

DH = Dear Husband
                A year ago, DH and I started our journey out of debt.  With three lines of credit and one mortgage totaling over $257,000, it was no small deal.  DH’s hi-tech job loss and eventual franchise purchase in the first decade of the millennium had added greatly to our already impressive debt, and last year, aged 53 and 49, a sobering reality was dawning upon us:  We would almost certainly be retiring within ten years, but we weren’t anywhere close to being prepared for it.  A recent and prolonged experience of financial stress combined with impending retirement made us feel uncomfortable with our debts as we never had before.
                Last March, a friend of mine who knew of our struggles loaned us her CD-version of Dave Ramsey’s book The Total Money Makeover.  Last May, I reluctantly started to listen to it on my commute to work.  Somehow, that CD worked its way through the quagmire of denial and chaos that was my financial mind and made me weep.  “I was surprised by my tears,” I wrote in my first post last May.  “Debt repayment, after all, is dull.  It’s all about practicality and numbers and detail and doing without and being sensible.  But here was Ramsey presenting it as something life-giving.  I allowed myself a vision on that car ride to work.  In my mind, I fast-forwarded to the day my husband and I would make our last mortgage payment, and we’d be completely debt-free.  It was glorious!  I’ve known for years that our debt load has been a burden, but I didn’t realize how life-sucking that burden was until I envisioned it gone.”
We are part of a debt-ridden generation.  My mother, a product of the Great Depression, was horrified into utter speechlessness when she found out the sum of our debts.   A slightly younger colleague of mine, on the other hand, wondered what the big deal was.  Ramsey has a theory for our generation’s growing comfort with debt.  “The story goes that if you drop a frog into boiling water, he will sense the pain and immediately jump out. However, if you put a frog in room-temperature water . . . and . . . gradually turn the water up to boiling, the frog will not sense the change.  The frog is lured to his death by gradual change” (Ramsey, 13).  Last June, DH and I decided to jump.
We have three children. One is grown and living on her own, and two are in their teens and living at home.  So we’re paying off debt while managing expenses typical of family life:  groceries; property taxes; home and auto insurance; utility bills; gas for the car; costs related to our younger daughters’ sports and other activities . . . These are hefty obligations in their own right, and to pay off debt as well is challenging.  From June 2011-June 2012, we paid close to $16,000 off our debt.  From June 2012-June 2013, we paid $50,000 – a number that represents a jaw-dropping percentage of our combined take-home pay.  Despite the fact there were no significant changes in our income or expenses, we had a 312% increase in our debt-repayment from one year to the next, and while I don’t completely understand it, I can share some lessons I’ve learned so far on the road to debt-freedom.
Lesson #1:  Be fiercely intentional.
                “You can wander into debt, but you can’t wander out of it,” says Ramsey.  I don’t think that an easy-going approach to debt reduction is possible.  In the April 21, 2011 issue of Statistics Canada’s Social Trends Magazine, Matt Hurst shows that Canadians’ average debt-to-income ratio has increased by 70% since 1990.  The “flow” of our culture is towards more and more debt, so if you if you want freedom from debt, don’t “go with the flow”; go with focused intention.
Lesson #2:  Sweat the small stuff.
                There is a popular saying that goes something like this:  “Don’t sweat the small stuff – and it’s all small stuff.”  I really don’t like that saying.  It pretends to be an antidote to worry, but it’s not.  The management of personal finances requires attention to detail.  For years – even decades – I had my head in the sand when it came to money matters, but since we started our journey out of debt, I have joined DH in tracking our finances, creating monthly budgets, preparing for big upcoming expenses, and deciding where to cut back.  When we’ve let the details slip, we’ve been less successful in our efforts to reduce debt.  We’re committed to sweating the small stuff so that we don’t need to worry.
Lesson #3:  Be prepared to do some soul-searching.
                In her book Payback:  Debt and the Shadow Side of Wealth, Margaret Atwood examines debt. “ ‘Debt is the new fat,’ someone said recently.  Which led me to reflect that, not so long ago, fat was the new cigarette-smoking, and before that, cigarette-smoking was the new alcohol-drinking, and before that, alcohol-drinking was the new whoremongering” (Atwood, 41).  We’re a species bent on destructive self-medication in one form or another.  As you face down your indebtedness, you’ll be shoved face-to-face with powerful opposing forces from within.  Do you struggle with the need to keep up with the Joneses?  Are you invested in an image of affluence or generosity?  Is it hard for you to say “No” to expensive social or family traditions?  Are meals out or shopping sprees a vital source of comfort?  Do you have money guilt?  To soldier through your forces of inner-sabotage, be prepared to undergo some discomfort and some deep-seated paradigm shifts.
Lesson #4:  Master the discipline of measured spending.
                I remember a local story about a group of men who worked together winning the lottery.  Each received about $400,000, and as far as I know, the first thing that every one of them did was to pay off his mortgage.  I’m pretty sure that if I won $400,000, I would immediately eliminate our debt.  But I’m not counting on a lottery win.  The practice of measured spending and gradual repayment is difficult to acquire in this all-or-nothing age of instant gratification, but it is possible.
Lesson #5:  Let go and let God.
                This advice seems to fly in the face of lessons #1 and #2, but it doesn’t.  Sometimes, even when you’re focused and taking care of all the details, events beyond your control stop your progress.  It’s easy to get very discouraged at such times, but it’s important not to.  Ramsey says it takes the average household seven years to get out of debt.  It’s a long road, and there will be both ups and downs along the way.  Find the grace to weather the journey.
DH and I are encouraged by our first year.  60% of Canadians retire in debt, but we’re hoping to beat the odds.  There are no guarantees, and I’m sure there are many more lessons to learn, but we’re on our way.

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Discretionary Spending While Getting Out Of Debt

DH = Dear Husband
DD1 = Dear First Daughter
            Sometimes I think, If we took our discretionary money and put it against our debt, we’d make faster progress on our journey to debt-freedom.  But it’s a thought that doesn’t stick, and that’s a good thing. 
Just to recap, DH and I have individual and joint discretionary money:
Ø  Individual:  We give ourselves each $600 per month for things like charitable donations, gifts, clothing, entertainment, restaurant meals and snacks – not to mention items like tooth paste, shampoo, and shaving cream.
Ø  Joint:  We used to hire house cleaners to the tune of $100 every two weeks, but now we do our own cleaning, and the money is set aside in its own account.  We use it for larger household purchases that represent wants rather than needs.  In April, for instance, we bought a flat-screen TV with money saved in this account.
There are two reasons why I think discretionary spending allowance is important – even while getting out of debt:
1.      If you don’t give yourself any permission to treat yourself, you’re at greater risk of burning out and giving up altogether.
2.      Discretionary spending provides training for life after debt.  While it is a perk, it’s one that fosters delayed gratification – waiting while saving; it encourages thoughtful purchase – taking a look at what’s out there and at what the best deals are; it provides practice in measured spending.

DH and I Compared 

From the start, DH has been much better at managing his discretionary fund than I have been at managing mine.  He has been able to save for relatively big ticket items – like paying for his annual gym membership outright – while still maintaining a healthy balance at the end of every month.  Furthermore, DH got in the habit of putting aside all of his change a few months before we started our journey out of debt.  For over a year now, he has dropped his coins into a jar, and as it has filled up, he has considered what he would do with it – a week-end of snowboarding generally coming out on top. 
I, on the other hand, have had a hard time keeping my discretionary fund above $0 – let alone saving anything.  In my last post, I identified my biggest weakness in managing money:  I buy snacks and meals too often.  My discretionary fund has suffered from a chronic leak of $1.50 here and $10.95 there.  Nothing exorbitant or even unreasonable in itself, but over time, draining.  So it is no surprise that my discretionary fund generally comes out at around $0 by the end of each month.  It’s better than less-than-zero (which it always used to be), but it exposes a real deficit in my practice of the thoughtful, measured spending mentioned above.  So DH and I are living proof that two people with the same income and the same expenses can end up in radically different financial situations. 
Last week, I drew a line in the sand.  In the name of taking a trip out west to visit DD1 this August as long planned, I stated (in bold no less), “not another penny will I spend on treats or meals out until I have saved enough money from my discretionary fund to purchase a plane ticket.” 
This past Monday evening, DH asked me to come and see something.  He showed me his coin jar.  It was empty.  Then he showed me an envelope filled with bills and some change – amounting to just under $600.  “What are you going to do with it?” I asked.  He handed me the envelope.  “You can use it for whatever you want,” he said, “but I thought it would help for your trip out west.”  My eyes well up just writing it.    
I’m too touched by his generosity not to be inspired by it.  I will not allow this incredibly sweet and sacrificial gesture to go to waste.  In the name of learning to manage money wisely, I’m inclined to steer clear of the “not another penny will I spend” route and truly to master that thoughtful, measured spending which has always eluded me.  After DH handed me his envelope, I did have enough money in my discretionary fund to buy a plane ticket, and was therefore free of the vow I had made only a few days before.  “Discretion”, according to mydictionary.com, is “the trait of judging wisely and objectively.”  Measured spending shows much wiser judgement than knee-jerk “not another penny will I spend.”  So on Wednesday evening, I practiced discretion and took DH out for a treat at Tim Hortons.  It was all on me.

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Debt-Warriors on Twitter & My Next Battle

DH = Dear Husband
DD3 = Dear Third Daughter
DD1 = Dear First Daughter
 
I’ve recently entered the world of Twitter.  In October, I decided to get a Twitter account after the morning host of a local radio station interviewed me and advised me to do so.  In February, a Twitter advocate among my colleagues sat me down and helped me to set up an account.  In May, I actually started to use it.  It took seven months from decision to execution, but Prudebtfree is now in the Twittersphere. 

Debt-Warriors on Twitter

Twitter was an overwhelming place at first, but I’ve narrowed my focus to people and organizations committed to debt reduction, and it’s become a source of motivation.  I find myself humbled by what other debt-warriors are sacrificing in their respective efforts.  When you’re getting out of debt, you come to realize that there is always something more you can do, and while this can be a deflating truth, it can also, if specifically targeted, help each one of us to move forward.  Many of my fellow Twitter debtors are in their twenties or thirties, and I cheer them on.  It’s so wise to start young!  But whatever the age, whatever the size of debt, and whatever the income level of the debtor, there are common threads that run among all of us:
Ø  Most of us have a history of bad money management.
Ø  Most of us have had a wake-up call – typically in the form of a loss of income.
Ø  Most of us are following some kind of program to get out of debt.
Ø  Each of us has particular points of weakness in taking on the giant.
I’ve pinpointed mine, and it is now my target.  Food.  I LOVE food.  I especially love food that has been prepared by someone in a restaurant.  Food that I don’t normally eat at home.  Muffins so warm, butter melts upon contact.   Asian vegetables cooked to a baffling crispy perfection.  Indian naan bread soaking up the sauce from buttered chicken . . . My love affair with food is long standing and intense. 

Discretionary Money Challenge

DH and I decided several months before we launched on our journey out of debt that we would each have $600 per month for discretionary spending.  (See post “Discretionary Money:  His and Hers”.)  It goes towards gifts and charitable donations; towards purchases that one of us wants to make, but not the other; towards movies, treats, and meals out.  All of the above is OK.
Here is what is not OK:  I too often buy snacks and meals on my own.  When I’m rushed in the morning and don’t make breakfast; when a snack craving hits me mid-afternoon; during my wait while DD3 trains for her sport in the evening.  And it all adds up.  I told DD1 in the fall that I would fly out west to see her this August.  She’s been living far from home, studying and working for over two years now, and I haven’t yet visited her.  With so much lead time, you’d think I’d have saved a good amount for the trip by this point.  But I haven’t.  The leakage towards treats and meals is sabotaging my plan.  So here’s my commitment:  not another penny will I spend on treats or meals out until I have saved enough money from my discretionary fund to purchase a plane ticket.
I’m slow to adopt new technology and social networking.  But I’m glad I’m on Twitter.  Reading the experience and advice of other debt-warriors has helped me to determine where I need to focus in my own fight against debt.  And I know what I need to do.  Prudebtfree is ready for battle. 
 

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Debt & Depression: The Art of Effort and Surrender

DH = Dear Husband
 
           I haven’t been sleeping well lately.  And the life-giving bursts of spring all around me haven’t been giving me much life.  Thoughts of muffins, egg rolls, and melted cheese have beckoned to me from some deep recess of my brain, promising to be the answer.  Except for when the knot in my stomach has stifled my appetite.  I could recognize the symptoms, but why?  I regret to say that despite my efforts to have perspective, I became deeply worried about the slow-down in DH’s business. 
 
In March, we could make no payment against our debt.  In April, the same.  There are logical reasons for this:  We had a big property tax bill in March, and our finances had become such a mess that we had nothing left over to put against the debt.  In both March and April, we had higher than average expenses.  In both March and April, DH’s business was slow.  Remarkably slow.  After months of hyperactivity, the slow-down was at first a relief.   By the end of the first slow month, relief gave way to philosophy:  There are ups and downs in self-employment.  This won’t last.  After the second slow month, philosophy gave way to dread. 

Gendered Distress

Our journey out of debt was launched in part due to our six years of financial stress after DH lost his career in the colossal hi-tech bust early in the millennium.   I can’t adequately express the bleakness of those years, but I can tell you that I felt it more than DH did.  According to Deborah Thorne’s research, as presented in Katherine Porter’s book Broke:  How Debt Bankrupts the Middle Class, “. . . the distress associated with severe indebtedness is gendered, with wives disproportionately reporting stress, insomnia, and depression” (Porter, p. 141).  Thorne includes in her research the anecdote of a woman she calls Traci who faced bankruptcy along with her husband.  “As they edged toward bankruptcy, the stress of unmanageable debts, collections calls, threats of wage garnishment, and the possibility of losing their home in foreclosure became virtually unbearable to Traci.  Her feelings of despair over their financial situation left her wishing for death:  ‘When I went in for surgery, I prayed to God that I didn’t wake up . . . I wanted to have an easy suicide . . . I didn’t want to live” (Porter, p. 136).  I hope and believe that the extremity of Traci’s experience is rare, but there is a continuum of dread, despair, and depression that allows most of us to empathize with her.
 
Dave Ramsey notes the same gendered difference in response to financial stress in his book, The Total Money Makeover.  “Somewhere down inside the typical lady is a ‘security gland’, and when financial stress enters the scene, that gland will spasm” (Ramsey, p. 144).  My ‘security gland’ was in a spasmodic state for the better part of six years, so there is a trigger effect now, even though logic and perspective don’t justify it.  Ramsey and his wife Sharon experienced bankruptcy in their twenties, and even though they have since become very wealthy, the impact of that stress is still present for her.  “Her emotions can revisit the fear of looking at a brand-new baby and a toddler and not knowing how we were going to keep the heat on.  That is a sensitive place in her psyche . . .” (Ramsey, p. 144).

Letting Go of Expectations

So what to do?  Look on the bright side?  Rustle up some positive energy?  Not quite.  But I have embraced a lower-key piece of wisdom that has recently come to me from three different sources:  church, Oprah, and a book on health.   When that happens, I pay attention.  This must be meant for me, I think.  (I’ve added the italics below for emphasis.)
 
Church  Along with the congregation, I have sung these words to a hymn:  “All of my ambitions, hopes, and plans / I surrender these into Your hands.”
Oprah  I took notes when she visited our city.  “Prepare yourself,” I scrawled.  “Do all you can, and then release it.  Have no attachment to what the outcome might be.” 
Health Book  Dr. Ben Lerner, in his book Body by God, says, “The really tough nights are when I allow my mind to race around worrying about not getting what I want . . . It is only after making the decision to let all my wants go that I finally get some rest.  Nothing can be taken from me when I want nothing” (Lerner, p. 38).
 
It’s a tough balance to strike, but I get it.  Give it your level best and hope, and at the same time, free yourself of any expectation.  For me, it means that I can feel confident that we’re doing the right thing.  We’re putting our efforts towards getting out of debt; we’re back on track with our monthly budgets; we’re communicating well; DH is working as hard as ever on his business.  At the same time, I can feel peace when things that are beyond our control prevent us from reaching our goals – at least for the short term.  Like unexpected big expenses. Or a few months of slow business.  And longer term?  If I answer the “What if?” questions, I come up with, “We’ll stop the business.  We’ll sell the house and move into a smaller one.  DH will look for another job.  I won’t retire as soon as I’d planned.”  Disappointing, but not the end of the world. 
 
While women can have a tough emotional time with debt, the stereotype for men is that they are more tied up in the ups and downs of work.  So there’s a double whammy for our household.  “I’m here through thick and thin. ‘For richer and for poorer . . .’” I said to DH yesterday morning, putting my hands on his shoulders as I saw the strain of worry working on him.  “It’s looking thin and poorer,” he said.  “Well, at least it’s thin,” I smiled, patting his flattened abs.  He’s had time for health and fitness lately.  I believe that for both men and women, the concept of effort followed by surrender is the antidote to the sink hole of depression, whether debt or work is beyond our control.  I don’t know if it is for sure, but I do know that I’ve shifted in my attitude as I’ve adopted this wisdom.  And I do know that last night, I slept like a baby.

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Debt Reduction & Keeping up with the Joneses?

DH = Dear Husband
 

The grass is greener . . . 

            One sure sign of spring in these parts is the sight of neighbours let loose upon their lawns.  A peek out the front window early on a week-end morning is sure to offer up at least a few industrious home-owners working away at the grass and gardens.  For years I have observed with some perplexity the incredible amounts of time that many of them devote to this pursuit.  What could they be doing for so long?  I have often wondered.  DH and I do not have particularly green thumbs, and over the last few years, with the start of his business, our poor yard has been neglected.  The result is quite marked by this point.  Most of our neighbours’ properties are covered with lush green grass and are attractively enhanced by shrubs, decorative rocks, and flower gardens.  Our lawn, on the other hand, is equal parts weeds, grass, and bald spots.  And our flower garden in the last couple of years has been overgrown with things I swear I never planted.   “When you pay off your house and burn the mortgage, take off your shoes and walk through the backyard,” advises Dave Ramsey, (our debt-reduction guru), “The grass feels different under your feet.”  With our yard as it is now, I’m pretty sure that even in a state of complete debt-freedom, we’d want to keep our shoes on. 
             Our neighbour to the right has award-winning gardens, a distinction facilitated by the team of lawn-care specialists who regularly come to work their magic on her property.  We have some comfort in our neighbour to the left.  Last week-end, as I was raking our pitiful grass, he came out to commiserate with me.  Still quite new to Canada, he is unfamiliar with our spring-time lawn rituals.  “What does everyone do to get their grass to look so good?” he asked me.  I told him that if I knew, our lawn wouldn’t look the way it did.  He shook his head in despair, saying, “We’ve got the ugliest yard on the street.”  I assured him that we were giving him stiff competition.  He told me that when he lived in the United States, everyone on his street hired a lawn care company.  Were we thinking of hiring one?  I told him we were.  “Let me know what you decide.  We’d like to hire someone too,” he said.
 

What to do?

            Having surveyed the damage over the previous couple of weeks, DH and I felt it was time to do something major to improve our yard.  In part, we reasoned that if our lawn kept getting worse, we would ultimately have to pay thousands to get it resodded.  That wasn’t all though.   I have to admit that there was also a more petty consideration at work.  Our lawn was embarrassing – the kind neighbours talk about in hushed tones.  DH got quotes from two different companies, each offering various services at prices ranging from several hundred to over a thousand dollars.  We were pretty certain we would hire one of them, but we’ve sat with it for a while, and we’re not going to do it.  We’ll settle for damage control – raking, weeding, and fertilizing to the best of our modest ability – and hope for the best.
 
            “Don’t even consider keeping up with the Joneses,” Dave Ramsey writes in his book, The Total Money Makeover.  “THEY’RE BROKE!” (Ramsey, p. 83)  He might be right, but I don’t see it.  I don’t believe that our neighbours are as indebted as we are.  They’re so cheerful and purposeful.  And they have such nice lawns.  It’s possible that I’m fooled by appearances, but whether they’re “broke” or not, we’re with Ramsey:  In our decision-making, keeping up with the Joneses will not be a determining factor. 
 
Our neighbours to the left will have to hire lawn-care specialists on their own, and we will be unchallenged in our “ugliest yard” status.  But I’ve noticed something since last week-end.  Our lawn is looking better.  Those hours of raking have made a difference.  There is more green – less bald dirt.  Sure, much of the green is made up of weeds, but we’ll work at it.  And I’ll seek advice from our diligent neighbours across the street who spend inconceivable amounts of time on their yard.  We can learn from the Joneses while refusing to keep up with them.  And when the time comes, when we’ve burned the mortgage and have entered a state of complete debt-freedom, we’ll walk through the backyard – with our shoes off.
 

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Debt Reduction And Deep Cleaning

DH = Dear Husband
 

 Spring!

            It’s Saturday morning, and the sun is shining in a clear blue sky.  Spring is here.  Hallelujah!  We’ve had some teasers over the past couple of months.  A rogue warm day.  The promising appearance of birds (including, right on our lawn, to our utter shock, two huge wild turkeys).  The seemingly final melting of snow.  But then another temperature drop would be followed by another snow storm.  We’ve got the real deal in spades now, and it’s very, very welcome.

Spring car-cleaning

            As soon as the weather is warm enough, I’ll clean the inside of my car, I decided over a month ago.  The rubber pads and carpet of the Ford’s floor were covered in layers of dirt, pebbles, and street salt.  Crumbs from a variety of my daughters’ snacks were generously scattered across its seats.  Dust blanketed the dashboard.  A long winter had meant a long time between cleanings, but last week-end, I dealt with it all:  rubber mats sprayed down with the hose; carpets and seats vacuumed; dashboard wiped with a damp cloth.  Mission accomplished?  Partially.  The next day, the floor and seats looked fresh, but the dashboard looked worse.  So many layers of dust had settled upon it that my attempt at wet-rag-wiping merely added moisture to the filth, creating dust-mud – which had dried and hardened over into a formidable grime.  

Deep-cleaning our finances

            When things are a real mess, deep cleaning is required.  A token wipe didn’t do it for my dashboard last week-end, but a scrub brush, sudsy water, and elbow grease should do the trick today.  Early in March, DH and I realized that our finances were in a real mess when we didn’t have the money we thought we’d set aside to pay our property tax bill.  “We’ve been too busy since the Christmas rush with DH’s business,” I wrote at the time (See post “Debtors Anonymous (& Our Property Tax)”).  “Like the proverbial juggler with too many balls up in the air, we’ve been dropping them . . . and our money is in a sloppy state . . . We’ve budgeted a certain monthly amount to cover the big property tax bills, but because we haven’t kept adequate track of the other areas of the budget, they’ve bled into each other, and our tax money has gradually dissipated.” We paid the tax bill, but it meant we had nothing to put against our debt in March.
            The thing is, it wasn’t enough for us simply to realize that our finances were in a mess.  We neglected the deep cleaning required, and at the end of April, we were once again surprised by our money situation.  “We’re over three thousand dollars out of balance,” DH said incredulously after we had carefully entered all remaining receipts from the previous week.  Last Saturday afternoon and evening, it was all about straightening out our financial house.  Besides doing our income tax, we went through our income and expenditures for April in painstaking detail.  Our detective work brought us back a few months more, and it took some serious time, but we did it.  We found the roots of the problem, and our account is in balance once again.  For the second month in a row, we had nothing to put against our debt, but the deep cleaning has been done, all is in order and accounted for, and we’re looking ahead.
            Things look favourable for May.  I receive three paycheques (as opposed to two) two months every year, and May is one of them.  We have surprisingly large income tax refunds coming our way.  I was slow in submitting substantial claims to my insurance, but I’ve done it, and a hefty reimbursement should be forthcoming.  Our street holds an annual garage sale each May, and this year, I plan to take part.  DH’s business, which was off-the-chart slow in April (after months of being off-the-chart busy) is already proving to be picking up in these first few days of May.  There will be significant expenses this month, but I’m confident that we’ll have a healthy amount to put against our debt by the end of May.  Just as I’m confident that my dashboard will be pristine by the end of today.
 
 

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Inspiration While Climbing Out Of Debt

DH = Dear Husband
 
               It’s been a week of inspiration.
Monday evening, I had the privilege of joining ten students and some staff from our school in a viewing of Girl Rising.  The film features nine girls from nine different parts of the world who struggle against staggering odds to get an education.  As stated on the website, “Girl Rising showcases the strength of the human spirit and the power of education to change the world.” It is beautiful visually, and although its subject matter is often so bleak, we all left the event warm with hope.  I had the chance to talk at length with one of our students whose experience shed light upon the fact that girls face obstacles to education not only in faraway places, but at home too.  “Miss, I want to do something,” said another student, trying her best to express the spark that had been lit in her.  Me too.
               Wednesday evening, I joined a small group of teachers and other supporters of schools in our board for a dinner with Eva Olsson, speaker and holocaust survivor.  In her early seventies, after decades of keeping silent on the topic of Nazi atrocities, Eva was confronted by the questions of her earnest and beloved young grandson.  She broke through her silence and opened up.  Today, over ten years later, she continues to answer the questions of students, school staff, and community members as she shares the nightmare of her experience and urges us not to be passive bystanders in the face of injustice, but to stand up to bullies.  And her choice to forgive is nothing less than monumental, her abundant life its most poignant testimony.  “I hope I will see you again before I get old,” she joked with me over dinner.  Dr. Olsson is eighty-eight years old.  “I’ll be back in November.”
               Friday afternoon, we hosted Ivan Coyote, writer and storyteller, in our school library.  It was decidedly ground-breaking, and although I eagerly looked forward to the presentation, I have to admit I was out of my comfort zone.  I adopted the role of organizer-skittering-about-the-sidelines, making sure there were enough chairs; dealing with the noise coming from an adjoining office; leading the charge to put tables and chairs back in place afterwards.  I can’t get my head around certain gender issues, but perhaps the point is that I don’t need to.  Ivan is a great storyteller, and her words drew me in along with everyone else.  Funny childhood mishaps; the oppressive anxiety brought on by high school mean-girls; devastating consequences of school bullying . . .  There are no boundaries to these human experiences.  The imperative of kindness is what lingered, along with many students who chose to stay in the space after the bell had rung and our guest had left.  They do that when something great has happened.
               It’s been the kind of week that leaves me wondering about life purpose – mine in particular.  My journey out of debt has me focused upon things that are far from inspiring:  We’re sticking to our grocery budget. High-five for us.   I still haven’t submitted that receipt for my orthotics.  Got to get on that.  DH’s business has been slower this month.  April might end up being another dry month for debt repayment, but the good news is that he has time to do his share of the house cleaning these days.  I’d rather be out there confronting bullies, fighting injustice, and opening up the doors of opportunity for the underprivileged.  And of course I have some margin of power to do all of the above already.  I have to acknowledge though, the limitations that debt imposes upon my ability to give to and to devote time and energy to causes resonating with worthy purpose.  It’s frustrating.  And it’s mortifying to acknowledge that I am the root cause of these limitations.
Oh well.  What did Oprah say again?  “Do the next right thing.”  Climb out of the hole.  Step up to the next foothold.  Reach for that ledge just a little higher up.  This is the mundane work that over time creates a better picture.  It’s the effort required to build a strong platform from which to launch into new purpose.

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Making Purchases While Getting out of Debt

DH = Dear Husband
DD2 = Dear Second Daughter
 

 The itch to buy

               Seven months ago, DH and I started to feel the itch to buy, buy, buy.  It was a familiar sensation – one we had historically resolved by discussion, argument, doubt, buying on credit, worry, stress, and resentment.  If you read my post “Mickey Mouse and His Broom:  Debt Illustrated in Fantasia”, you can see the list of items and services that tempted us, at that time, to reach for our credit cards:  “I’m noticing stains on our carpet.  The piano is out of tune, and its bench is cracked.  The furniture in our family room is visibly worn.  DH keeps talking about getting a sectional sofa and a flat screen TV.  My wardrobe is in dire need of sprucing up.  Today DD2 said to me, quite sweetly, as we got ready to walk the dog ‘I want to sign you up for What Not to Wear.’”
DH and I knew we could not respond to these wants as we had in the past.   We had read The Total Money Makeover, and we were committed to our journey out of debt.  Dave Ramsey establishes a humbling truth near the beginning of his book:  To find the cause of your failures with money, look in the mirror.  “You are the problem with your money . . .  The Total Money Makeover plan . . . works because it gets to the heart of your money problems:  you” (Ramsey, 4).  So what did DH and I see when we looked at the couple in the mirror?

 The couple in the mirror  

The woman had never developed any financial maturity.  Dismissive of the laws of addition and subtraction, she had only a vague notion of how much she earned, but kept no track of it.  She kept no track of what she spent either.  Aware that something was amiss with her financial management, she would sometimes go on a spending fast and buy remarkably little – but that only lasted until she binged and bought when and what she wanted.  With no measured discipline, she fluctuated between fasting and binging.  The baby of the family in which she’d been raised, she had learned in adolescence that raising a fuss brought results when it came to money matters.  She was stuck in financial adolescence.
The man seemed to be so much more mature.  His eyebrows were dark and heavy as he managed the money.  He knew pay schedules, and he kept track of expenditures.  He could specify where the accounts stood.  And he worried.  The baby of his family, he had grown up with a dad who was always worried about household finances.  That’s what dads did.  So while he kept track, he did his part to ensure the maintenance of our anxiety.  Every once in a while he’d suggest a big expenditure to his wife, much to her surprise, given his general complaint about household finances.  A week-end get-away perhaps, or a piece of furniture.  He would offer a compelling rationalization that should have raised red flags in her mind.  But money talk went over her head, and she had a strong aversion to mucking about in the details of finances anyway.  She, who was not inclined to deny herself anything, was not inclined to deny her husband either.  So with her blessing, he’d carefully purchase what they couldn’t afford, and successfully maintain the state of worry necessary to the position of dad.

Our plan of action

With a steady eye on the couple in the mirror, we have made decisions about each item on our wish list over the past seven months:
        We paid to have the carpets professionally cleaned in October, with money budgeted to household expenses.
        I bought $200 worth of clothing in October, with money from my discretionary fund (see post “Shopping While Getting out of Debt”).
        We had the piano tuned in November, with money budgeted to household expenses.
        I have talked with the wood work teacher at my school, and he has agreed to look at our cracked piano bench to see if it would be suitable as a project for a student.
        In October, we started to put aside the money we were no longer spending on cleaners.  Every two weeks, $100 has been going into a mutual discretionary fund for items that are “wants” as opposed to “needs”.
        On Friday of this past week, we bought a flat-screen TV with money from that fund.
        $200 remains in the fund, and it is going to go towards new flooring in the family room – in several months.
        The sectional sofa will have to wait.
We’ve enjoyed the flat-screen TV this week-end.  Four episodes of Mad Men, season five, with a sharpness of colour and clarity that is, for now, amazing.  But I think I’m even more pleased with the fact that we did it:  We wanted.  We planned.  We saved.  We waited.  We purchased – without going into more debt.  We are starting to see something different in the mirror.  This man and this woman, who have been at the heart of our financial problems, have shown concrete evidence of improvement.  “Are you ready to take on the guy or gal in your mirror?” Ramsey asks.  “If you are, you are ready to win” (Ramsey, 3).  I feel something of the shyness I typically feel upon meeting new people.  I don’t quite dare to believe what I see in the mirror.

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Oprah’s Climb out of “Struggle” = Fuel for My Climb out of Debt

DD3 = Dear Third Daughter
DH = Dear Husband
              When news media put out the message that Oprah was “struggling” with OWN, she internalized it.    “I was already feeling everything they were saying,” she admitted, and the cycle was vicious.   But she shifted that paradigm.  “I wasn’t ‘struggling’.  I was in a hole, and I was climbing.”  Her goal became her step up to the next foothold; then getting a firm hand on that ledge a little bit higher up; never daunted by the entirety of the vertical journey, her focus was to do the next right thing.  And she has done some formidable climbing.

An evening with Oprah

               I spent an evening with six colleagues and Oprah this week – plus another fifteen thousand people.  Through my years of part-time work and extended maternity leave, Oprah was a guest in our home almost every afternoon at 4:00.  I remember one summer afternoon, at the neighbourhood public swimming pool, telling three-year-old DD3 that we had to go home.  “Is it Oprah time?” she asked.  I caught the smiles of other moms, many of whom no doubt were also scheduling their afternoon swims around the Oprah Winfrey Show.
             Let me just say that the evening was fabulous.  It was a combination of celebrity hype and the homey gratification that comes with seeing an old friend again.  Miss Winfrey offered rich testimony; she shared wisdom that resonated; and she made us laugh out loud.  (I don’t think I ever before appreciated just how funny she is.)  Sitting with my colleagues, I was struck by the versatile applicability of her message.  She touched each one of us in our different situations.
             For my part, I understood her reflections upon “struggling” – not because I ran a network, but because I started out ten months ago with a $257,000 debt.  I could identify with her reality of hopelessness, negative messages, and vicious cycles.  And I could see the value in that paradigm shift, so I’m shifting too.  I’m not struggling; I’m in a hole and I’m climbing.  If I look below me, I can see the nearly $50,000 that we’ve already taken off that gargantuan total.  But if I look up, it won’t be to focus on the totality of our still very steep and long climb; it will be to focus on doing the next right thing.

Oprah on “Luck”

             “Luck is preparation meeting the moment of opportunity,” she said.  In the first ten months of our journey out of debt, DH and I have had episodes of such luck.  By budgeting, tracking, being thoughtful and intentional with expenditures in the first months, we were prepared for November’s windfall (See “Debt and Uncertainty . . .” and “Debt Reduction and Guilt . . .”); and we were prepared in December and January when the Christmas rush put DH’s business on steroids.  In the three months from November 2012 to January 2013, we paid off $27,300 of debt because we were prepared when the moments of opportunity came.  In the three months from December 2011 to January 2012, we had similar opportunities, but because we were still in financial La-La-Land and not remotely prepared, we had no such luck.
             Lately, the moments of opportunity have been keeping themselves at bay, and combined with our burned-out sloppiness with budgeting (See “Debtors Anonymous [& Our Property Tax”]) we haven’t been making much progress.  But I’m focused now on stepping up to that next foothold, and I’m reaching for the ledge just above my fingertips.  Opportunity will come again; I’m preparing myself for it.
It’s been a long, long winter.  “I was told it was going to be spring,” Oprah said soon after she came onto the stage, her mock sense of having been tricked making us all laugh.  “And now they’re telling me, ‘Last year at this time, it was warm and sunny here.’”  And it was!  Right now, however, we’re dealing with the after-effects of a snowstorm.  Spring remains aggravatingly out of reach, but going to see Oprah was an even more powerful energy-boost than that wonderful season.  Miss Winfrey gave me a sharpened vision and fuel to my efforts.  By sharing her strategies for triumph, she made me more certain of my own.

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